I thought this might be a good time to give an update on my health situation and the things I’m learning from my journey.
As I wrote about in my last blog I finally found out I have a problem with my thyroid and adrenal glands, which is causing some of my fatigue, cold hands, excessive thirst, infertility, etc.. I have been going to a holistic Doctor of Chiropractic Medicine to be treated for both of these issues. Why this kind of treatment? Well, every blood test I took for my thyroid and adrenal gland always came back fine. I tried to get into an endocrinologist a few months ago but the doctor would not see me until I had a blood test that came back positive. In retrospect I’m very thankful for this because I would much rather try to tackle something more holistically if I can.
To start things off she had me do a 21-day cleanse, which actually turned into a 36 day cleanse (that’s what I get for not following directions and it just took my body longer to get rid of the bad!). The cleanse was basically to help cleanse my liver of the toxins I’ve gathered over the years from certain medications, foods, metals and such. On the cleanse I took a few supplements, ate two yummy :/ shakes a day and ate a strict gluten free, no sugar, no dairy, no nuts, no beans diet. I know, you’re wondering what I ate and are cringing at the thought but I really enjoyed it and I honestly did not feel deprived at all! My doctor has actually advised me to continue to eat clean in order to help my body heal itself naturally. So, I’ve decided to continue eating a clean diet (I just recently added raw dairy to the mix).
Here’s the crazy thing; I had no idea just how much I needed this cleanse. I had quite the time on the cleanse. Needless to say I felt awful. Why? Because my body needed to get rid of the toxins! And after it finally did, I started feeling better.
You know, if you looked at me from the outside would you guess I would need a cleanse? Would you guess I’d be the type of person to have a pacemaker? I appear to be healthy and in good shape. You see friends; this is what God has been teaching me throughout this process. Looks can be deceiving. Families can appear healthy and as though they have it all together, people can appear as though they are happy and content. Appear is the key word here. I appear to be healthy--but I’m not. Some people/families appear to be healthy, but they are not. You could even say something teachings in the church appear to be biblical, but they are not.
I don’t want to be the type of person whose pride gets in the way of living a real, raw, authentic life. You see, I’m a broken person being made new by the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ. I don’t have it all together. I used to think I had to appear as such, but God has shown me otherwise. Freedom is found in authenticity. Living as though we appear to be strong, that’s pride and that’s sin and there’s no freedom in that, trust me I’ve been there I know how burdensome it is.
Here’s the other thing I’ve learned. Sometimes, in order to get to a healthier state, physically, spiritually, or emotionally things may get worse before they get better. Ever experienced that in your life? My cleanse made me actually feel worse in different ways. I sometimes wondered why I was doing this and if it actually made any difference. Sometimes God takes us on these journeys where we may experience some type of suffering (look at Joseph’s life). There’s something so awesome and unique about God because it’s in these times that redemption comes, IF we would surrender to Him and trust Him for the timing. Timing, that’s the tough part, trusting in His timing.
Jesus came to put broken people back together (far better than we could ever do!). Is. 61:1b “He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners,” I want to become more like Jesus but this means my old self has to die. This is NOT an easy, pain free process, BUT the outcome is well worth it. I wonder if you’ve been broken before the Lord? I know God is breaking me (Follow this link to hear me share how God is in the process of breaking me https://vimeo.com/51186239 ).
I would greatly appreciate your continued prayers throughout this healing process. I know it’s going to be a long journey, but I really think I've made a step in the right direction. Praise God! I haven’t been well for a while and I’m looking forward to being well again! Blessings to you all!