So, it happened. I got scared. I became afraid of losing our baby boy. I talked about this fear before due to my miscarriage and how I was sure it would happen again sometime throughout the pregnancy. Well it did. It happened. A few things led up to it, things out of my control. Things that happened to others around me and this conversation at the doctors office 5 weeks ago…
“We couldn’t get a good look at his heart, but everything else looks fine. If you didn’t have your appointment with Dr. Abrams (the high risk doctor) in two weeks we would have to do another ultrasound.”
Trust me people when you’re a gal with a cardiac history, open-heart surgery at 11, and a pacemaker at 28—this is not something you enjoy hearing about your baby during their 20 week appointment. I wanted to hear about his heart. I wanted to know he had his dad’s heart and not his mom’s, but I couldn’t know I would have to wait. Jesus, I trust You.
Thankfully, we went to the high-risk doctor two weeks later and our hearts were put at ease as we learned that our baby’s heart looked wonderful. Thank You Jesus. Deep breath.
Yet, within those two weeks of waiting I can recall being overwhelmed with fear for a couple of days. While meeting with a dear friend of mine I shared this fear, and let me tell you this friend of mine she is a prayer warrior. We prayed together over this fear, and it was as if right there in that room Jesus lifted the fear right off of me. By God’s grace, it’s been about a month since then and I haven’t felt the fear since.
It tells us in James 5:16, “Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.”
Now, I wonder how often we don’t share the pain of our hearts out of fear and pride. Go with me here. Asking for prayer means that we have to be vulnerable and open ourselves up to the fact that we are weak. That takes guts to do sometimes doesn’t it?
The longer I walk with Jesus, the more I realize how much I need the prayers of other people. By God’s grace I’m learning just how powerful it is to admit my weakness and need for prayer. We need both individual and communal prayer.
How about you? Are you asking others for prayer or burying the cries of your heart?